Saturday, 19 October 2013

Im back. The story of break ups, the meaning of pink hair, and an apology

Alot can happen in the time I've been away from this blog, and alot has.
I want to take a new direction with this blog, I want to write longer pieces that actually mean more and not just focus the entire blog on what i wear and pictures. I want the people who view or read my blog to learn more about me, who i am, what my life is like and what I'm going through.

I apoligise for the break i took, i think it was a combination of alot of things, I met the perfect guy not long after my last post, and i focused every single piece of energy i had to that relationship which ended yesterday.
I learnt alot through being with him, i learnt to have higher standards and expect more from people and to treat the ones i love better, because admit-ably the breakdown of us was mostly my fault, he was just brave enough to go through with it. He was defiantly a very sweet guy and what he said will stick with me for a very long time, I harbor no harsh feelings towards him and I hope we can one day become friends.

When I started this blog I was fourteen, I was dating my first ever serious boyfriend and when that ended horribly it left me emotionally scarred as he did some terrible things to me, after moving on and healing and then dating the guy i just did I grew alot and had a wonderful relationship which will stay with me for a very long time. He accepted me for whom I am, and i thank him for that because I was myself in every way.

When I broke up with my first boyfriend, I decided to forget what was considered normal and heal myself, be who i wanted, I dyed my hair pink as you might know if you've read my blog before. It was an escape from him as he would never let me do anything like that. But pink hair led to alot more than that, it led to me discovering myself, Finally for the first time in years developed a thick skin and self confidence, I developed the ability to be able to express myself and I finally realized what i wanted, I had so many beautiful adventures and experiences based on that one simple act of separating myself from an ex boyfriend.
I started to develop my own identity, my own beliefs and morals, the image of who I am now.

I've dyed my hair purple, blue and green since then, I' ve had the courage to cut it all off and to buy some of the craziest outfits. The amount I've matured due to that simple act astonishes me, I've realized what really matters and that is not being popular, or pretty, or loved. The important thing is to know yourself, to know who you are and what you want, how you want to look and think and say, that you want to live for yourself and not somebody else, that you are happy with who you are.

So what does this have to do with fashion?
Not alot, I've been thinking since recent events, about how I've become the person i am now.
And how that inspires me to do what I do now.

So I can say that I will really try to make an effort this time
and that I  will also let you know a bit more about me.
That I will write much more lengthy pieces that are worth reading.

If you read all of that,
Thank you

Jade xx

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