My favourite bags

I've recently started collecting bags, mainly backpacks. This all began when Izza came to school with a seethrough daisy bag.

I was seriously jealous and all because it reminded me of my days back in primary school where i owned alot of see through things for no apparent reason. So it then became my mission to find the ultimate see through bag for my school bag for year 11 and 12, I spent many- a - days  googling when i stumbled apon this. 

This beautiful inflatable bubble backpack much like one of the 90s, I found it on etsy and it was the last one from the seller, I couldn't find anything quite like it anywhere else  and the little pockets with the shiny animals and stars won me over completely, It wasn't cheap, the bag ending up costing me almost $50 with postage but I was impressed with the postage time and I was gifted a free keychain and pony by the seller. I've been using this backpack nearly every day because its so adorable and looks good with almost everything I wear, Im sure it will end up featured in an Outfit post soon. Its also the same shade as Izza backpack and its see through so I feel like I've won the competition of coolest backpack. 

My wiggles backpack is another favourite as you may have seen in my recent outfit post, I haven't used it alot because its a bit too colourful to go with everything, It does give a certain flair to my band tee combos, I also love how it looks with red. I bought this bag from a Garage sale with a large abundance of childrens and babys things, it cost me $3 and it was really just an impulse buy. It really does remind me of an earlier post of Tavis involving a Thomas the tank engine backpack http://www.thestylerookie.com/2008/04/thomas-tank-engine-superman-and-lucy.html which is what made me think this one is really stylish and I can totally pull it off. 

This one i bought recently from a thrift shop, I'd seen it the last couple of times I'd been thrifting in the store but I hadn't thought to buy it until my backpack obsession started. It was 50 cents and in the childrens toy section, a weird place to put such a wonder, almost every thrift store in my town is extremely organised, not like the ones I've heard about in the US, so its rare to find something like this reasonably priced. I haven't actually used this backpack yet I've just admired it and thought of all the fun controversial things i could fill it with, like tampons and condoms. Pfft I'm not immature. But i am keen to try this one out, its kind of a capsule style bag and the pink would go well with some cute pastel colours, much like those in my Black milk bodysuit.

This bag was a gift from Izza and not normally something I would have picked for myself, but i absolutely adore it! I like how it resembles a tutu, as I absolutely adore tulle. It came filled with lots of fun things a typical Izza style present. I'm not sure whether or not I will use this bag but it is pretty to look at, I have some mary janes that Im adding black glitter to that might suit it perfectly. I think recieving a gorgeous bag like this which I wouldn't normally pick for myself has opened my mind to looking for the possibilities an item might have and since recieving this I've picked up things I wouldn't normally have and purchased them. I think it pays to learn from other people.

This bag is more my style and less extravagant than my other favourites but still something worth mentioning. I love satchel bags and with the recent death of my gorgeous vintage black satchel I needed something to replace it. I bought this from a Thrift store for $1.50 a few days after getting back from hospital, I'm not usually into coloured satchels and prefer brown and black but this is definitely my favourite satchel I've owned. Its sturdy and woven and the blue seems to go with most things I own. 

So at the moment I definitely have a thing for bags, since I was 8 year olds I've owned a handbag and never been spotted without one, I believed that owning a handbag would make me more grown up on some level and it just kinda stuck, so I own a massive collection of Bags, I've lost count to be honest. I like how you can hold so much crap inside a bag, lip gloss, chap stick, my entire lipstick collection, sunglasses, wallet, phone, ipod, childrens toys etc.. 

So like me I hope you enjoy bags and my favourite bags collection may have inspired you for future purchases. 

Jade xx 

Red and Blue, A superheroes hue.

Well hello lovely people! Today is the 2nd day of the official holidays for my school so I am actually able to see my friends instead of spending every waking day huddled in my room obsessively doing craft and diy, I was beginning to turn into a hermit. But the bonuses to a creepy horror movie-esc style diy addiction are rewarding as I now have a massive collection of awesome personalised clothes. This jacket I started before I went into hospital and I really dont think it can hold much more so I guess that makes it finished. I just glued bedazzles from the Reject Shop all over it and made badges out of toys and flowers using fabric and saftety pins, then I added One direction badges not because i particularly like 1D but because they're kind of the most adorable twinks I've ever seen. 

The rest of my outfit I based on Red and Blue, the theme of Mermaidens 50s barbie makeup look. 

I can't say alot has been going on in my life of late so I dont really have alot of inspiring anecdotes for you. I am almost officially 16! My birthday is the 21st so next week.  I can't say I really want to go do anything exciting, my hermit lifestyle is growing on me, but one of my friends is an avid rookie reader like me and she wants 'my sweet sixteenth' to be like Tavis. I was just thinking of eating cake at the cemetary and using a ouija board to call some spirits or something.. not traditional, i know but hey i hate parties.  In my entire life I have been to one party and 3 so called parties, so I dont think I exactly have the skills to be throwing one, aswell as i dont really drink and my generation dont tend to go to get togethers unless they can get plastered. 

So if i dont end up doing anything for my birthday I might just stay in my room watching Molly Ringwald movies and listening to records. I'm exciting, right? 

Hair clip- Markets, Earring- Gift from Izza, All seeing eye necklace- Jay Jays, Jacket- Garage sale (DIYed by me), Iron Maiden Shirt- Cream, Belt- Thrifted, Skirt- Thrifted, Petticoat (worn underneath- Thrifted, Stockings- Bonds for Woolworths, Docs- Vintage shop.

Shawtys like a melody in my head.

About 3 weeks ago i had a spinal fusion in Sydney, So I havent really been  up to doing an outfit post for a while, or if have my outfit hasnt been that great. Today I went thrifting with my Dad who is one of my biggest fans and reads my blog quite alot. HEY DAD! I was looking for photo frames for my ongoing room update which I've been working on for 6 months... its a tough task and its taking longer than I expected but Its been worth it so far so im continuing it. I picked up some sweet buys that weren't photo frames... because of course i couldnt just leave them there! Ill do a December favourites post soon so you can see them. 

So other than spending alot of time bed ridden, I've been doing alot of thrifting and diy and i have some amazing pieces, I'm making headbands for profit for a few local girls as I'm getting alot of good feedback from my recent headband diys. I'm also writing an article to submit to rookie, which I will feature here incase it doesnt get published. Its definantly a different world not going to school, I watch way too many early 2000 movies and spend alot of time lip syncing to Die Antwoord. 

Stay brilliant lovelies 

xx

Jade

My wiggles backpack, which is a band for little kids, they've been around since I was a little kid and I thought this bag was adorable.

My cranky selfie. i couldnt seem to take  anything without pulling this face. 

Hair clip- Markets, Detachable collar- made by me, Suicide Silence merch- Markets, High waisted shorts- Thrifted, Docs- Vintage shop, Wiggles backpack- Garage Sale.

The ending of forever- Memories

Recently, i read an article on rookie that a friend recommended. It was the editors letter by the one person i aspire to be like so much, Tavi Gevinson. Since I was 12 years old shes been everything ive wanted to be, and she writes beautifully.. i really wish i could be as great as her.

But thats besides the point, Tavi is almost finished high school, almost officially considered an adult, i cant understand what that must feel like as Im not even 16. But i still can appreciate what she feels. She talks about the ending of Forever, the concept of adolescence and feeling invincible and perfect and living in the moment. She elaborates on memories of her life and talks about her fears, you can find the article here.

So here is a bit about my forever, my feeling of losing forever even though i still have some forever left.
I do feel what Tavi describes sometimes, that feeling of complete perfection that this is the time, that this is the moment, Forever helps me get through my days at school, my days in life.
I havent felt it in a while, But thats ok i dont always need to feel it.
I havent had the perfect high school experience, But i have beautiful memories of perfect moments in my up and down life.

Taking a walk on the beach by myself on a lazy sunday afternoon, taking selfies and trying to take creative photos of the environment around the coastal colder sack my dad lived in, letting the water tickle my toes and rolling up my sopping wet jeans.

Playing dress ups in Clares down stairs bedroom pushing my pubescent body into clothes clearly too small for me and giggling as we all tried to look the 'hottest', slaughtering my face with eyeliner and taking such horrible and badly posed photos for the sake of sexy

The first time I saw Izza and everything that now means to me, the fact that she accepted me into her group and into her world and high school wouldnt have been the same without her.

Being hitting by a water balloon on year 12 muck up day as i sat on a boys lap, the feeling of being on a boys lap and being held around the waist by his strong arms, the hot feeling of embarrassment on my checks as my entire body is soaked by stagnant water.

Watching horror movies in Izzas Granny flat and dancing to the beatles on new years eve,

Running up the street singing i just had sex by lonely island the day i lost my virginity, falling asleep knowing id finally had sex with somebody and feeling like my life would be changed

Having my friends crowd around me as i suffered from my first piercing, and then spending the whole day in town pushing each other in an abandoned shopping trolley and sipping grappa out of an ice tea bottle at the park, while yelling obscene things at 13 year olds.

Slow dancing in an opshop with my first boyfriend as the old ladies clapped and spoke of how sweet
we looked together

Learning about the world of alternative music, through my conversations with Izza at lunch and on the bus.

Flirting with cute boys at the train station on work experience, feeling optimistic as i listened to ' the suffering by coheed and cambria' the soundtrack to my independence and my confidence.

Drawing various cartoons of our science teacher all over our books with Izza, wasting all of year 8 maths talking about bullshit and playing truth or dare under the table.

Trampling around the town trying to 'pick up boys' with an older friend.

The first time a p plater drove me home, listening to horrible techno music as everyone stared at us.

Throwing a stone into the ocean to signify forgetting a past love as i tried to mend a broken heart on a road trip with my mother.

Making out with a boy in his car near council property at night, feeling hot breath on my neck as he whispered sweet nothings and un did my pants.

Harassing an older boy with a stupid fringe and obsessively making jokes about him

Skinny Dipping with my friends at night, in a drunken state as we all saw what each other looked like naked in the moonlight, screaming as we got covered in glowing algae and speaking secrets and truths to each other that we all knew wouldnt happen if we were sober.

Making out to records with the first boy to appreciate them.

Using an Ouija board with Jess while Josh danced around in tights holding a pineapple

Driving down a freeway in the city with my mother, windows rolled down, radio on, telling her all the things we knew i wouldnt say if we were at home.

Smoking my first joint behind the garden shed, washing the smoke out of my hair and not understanding the hype about drugs

Eating a pastry in a bakery and planning my future with a friendly old man, realizing that i dont have alot of time left

I have alot of memories all that mean a different things to me, even sad memories like watching my mother drive off crying, wearing my school pants and a see through top, sitting on my dads driving way crying because i had acne and no friends and my parents had just split up and i was all alone in the world.
Running away from my boyfriends house on his birthday when i found out he was cheating on me, choking back tears and feeling the deep feeling of sickness in my stomach that only a boy could give to me.
Tying a noose on a beam on my house.

Alot of my favourite memories involve under age drinking, which i would rather not mention, but i think thats what makes them favourite, the nostalgic feel to it, the fact that it was forbidden and i felt dangerous doing it, realistically we never ever had much considering we were just taking sips.

Alot of my memories involve intimacy with guys, because i associate sex with maturity and growing up, because i associate sex with love and love means everything to me. My first kiss, the first time somebody told me they loved me are so pure and personal to me, these are the times i do feel in the moment and i do feel invincible.

Alot of my memories involve my current friends, who mean the world to me, who are eternally important to me.

No not all of these are feelings of forever, there are the times i was broken down and crushed by the world and the weight that it left on my shoulders, but these memories go hand in hand with my feelings of forever. My time is not over yet, my memories not finished being made, Im not the editor of one of the most popular alternative teen magazines with a huge international fan base, Im a strange bi sexual girl in a shitty country town, Im not normally very sentimental, I used to be once, but I think i hide it deep inside my tough introverted exterior, but I am sentimental about how i became who i am, without all of my memories and experiences, my forevers, i dont know if i would have been able to survive in this town.

orange hues, school girl shoes.

I know Ive been gone for a bit but I actually have some things to tell you about whats happened while Ive been gone. 

My hair is now of a fun apricot hue, one which im not sure suits me but its nice to have it a lighter colour as everything Ive had for a while has been a cool dark coloured shade. It took about 3 bleaching sessions and sitting with vitamin c and shampoo in my hair to get it light enough for orange. I had a weird mix of blonde and powder blue in my hair for a while. It does take some effort time and money to have coloured hair, i dont know how some people do it.

Another advancement in the life of Jade, Is i am now the proud owner of a belly piercing, The product of $60 and my pain tolerance yesterday, I will show it soon after its healed a bit. I would definantly have to say I am somewhat a piercing junkie, which is probably not something Ive discussed here before. 

Due to the influences of my favourite things such as metal and alternative culture aswell as my friends, I am one of those 'out there' types who plans to have thousands of tats and piercings by the time Im 20, at the moment, mum and dad have limited me to 3 ear piercings one side, two the other, a rook (top ear cartlidge), nose and belly button, i plan on getting a vertical labret, which is a bar through the bottom lip and some more ear cartlidge piercings. 

Ive also been sewing and thrifting a bit, I bought this red paisley blouse a few days ago in a half price sale, Im going to try my luck at upcycling soon.... I guess we will see if that goes well.. probably not. Im not a very good seamstress but im learning. 

This outfit is what i wore on my day off this weekend, the other day i wore my flouro orange icecream uniform which doesnt actually clash with my hair as i thought it would. I like the way the shirt looks paired under the dress, and the cute school girl shoes look, although im thinking of making them holographic through the power of diy! but maybe not as theyre very versatile. 

Beanie- Factorie, Earring- Gift from Izza, Paisley shirt- Thrifted, Dress- Gift from ex boyfriends sister, Stockings- Woolworths, Shoes- Garage Sale.

I wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair.

It feels so good to be posting again,
Im really happy that can finally put enough effort into this blog again.
So of late I've done alot of op shopping and I've developed a more refined sense of personal style and I have alot of nice pieces.

So of late life has been interesting, I work at an ice creamery and its not actually a completely horrible job the other day some guy asked me how I actually have a job with my coloured hair, which was the most rude and stupid statement I have ever heard.
Im sure alot of people who may have stumbled apon this blog or whatever may suffer from discrimination based apon personal appearance or sex or race or whatever and it is horrible. I get it alot and thats only based apon the personal choices i make on how to look or whatever, I know some people who read my blog dont have coloured hair and they somewhat aspire to be like me, with coloured hair and whatever.
Id just like to let you know that it is hard and you have to be thick skinned and be prepared.
The ironic thing about my job is that, one of my bosses is really sexist and discriminates against me constantly, Im a feminist clearly and when Im told that, I kind of want to punch my boss in the head,
Discrimination is horrible and inevitable, I wish the world was different sometimes.
When I was a little and i used to get bullied alot, when I first saw the bridge to terribitha and i used to imagine  a world where there were no bullies and I was happy. These days I imagine a world with no gender binary, no sexism and really open minded people. Discrimination is horrible.
So stay strong beautiful peoples and keep being who you are, maybe one day the world will change.
But until then you have to stay strong, keep wearing what you want, keep saying what you want and just ignore everything else.

Top- Thrifted, Skirt-  Thrifted, Docs- Vintage shop. 

The skirt is a new favourite, I've gained a bit of weight and skirts are way way more flattering on my figure. I like the contrast of this, it reminded me of 80s days on ovals making out with boys. I defiantly am getting much better at this pairing thing. My lipstick is a toxic mix of eyeshadow and Vaseline, i wouldnt recommend it as a permanent but it is fun to try. 

Jade xx

Im back. The story of break ups, the meaning of pink hair, and an apology

Alot can happen in the time I've been away from this blog, and alot has.
I want to take a new direction with this blog, I want to write longer pieces that actually mean more and not just focus the entire blog on what i wear and pictures. I want the people who view or read my blog to learn more about me, who i am, what my life is like and what I'm going through.

I apoligise for the break i took, i think it was a combination of alot of things, I met the perfect guy not long after my last post, and i focused every single piece of energy i had to that relationship which ended yesterday.
I learnt alot through being with him, i learnt to have higher standards and expect more from people and to treat the ones i love better, because admit-ably the breakdown of us was mostly my fault, he was just brave enough to go through with it. He was defiantly a very sweet guy and what he said will stick with me for a very long time, I harbor no harsh feelings towards him and I hope we can one day become friends.

When I started this blog I was fourteen, I was dating my first ever serious boyfriend and when that ended horribly it left me emotionally scarred as he did some terrible things to me, after moving on and healing and then dating the guy i just did I grew alot and had a wonderful relationship which will stay with me for a very long time. He accepted me for whom I am, and i thank him for that because I was myself in every way.

When I broke up with my first boyfriend, I decided to forget what was considered normal and heal myself, be who i wanted, I dyed my hair pink as you might know if you've read my blog before. It was an escape from him as he would never let me do anything like that. But pink hair led to alot more than that, it led to me discovering myself, Finally for the first time in years developed a thick skin and self confidence, I developed the ability to be able to express myself and I finally realized what i wanted, I had so many beautiful adventures and experiences based on that one simple act of separating myself from an ex boyfriend.
I started to develop my own identity, my own beliefs and morals, the image of who I am now.

I've dyed my hair purple, blue and green since then, I' ve had the courage to cut it all off and to buy some of the craziest outfits. The amount I've matured due to that simple act astonishes me, I've realized what really matters and that is not being popular, or pretty, or loved. The important thing is to know yourself, to know who you are and what you want, how you want to look and think and say, that you want to live for yourself and not somebody else, that you are happy with who you are.

So what does this have to do with fashion?
Not alot, I've been thinking since recent events, about how I've become the person i am now.
And how that inspires me to do what I do now.

So I can say that I will really try to make an effort this time
and that I  will also let you know a bit more about me.
That I will write much more lengthy pieces that are worth reading.

If you read all of that,
Thank you

Jade xx